This post, or series of posts emanates from the discussions our church has recently had about money and the kingdom of God. David Fitch, my friend and my pastor has been preaching about money for several weeks. I have enjoyed his messages. On top of that, we've had ongoing conversations about the practice and use of money in the kingdom of God as a church prior to worship. It's been a great discussion. But all this talk about practicing the use of money in God's kingdom, touches some past wounds and even current wounds in my story.
I am opening up to some vulnerable and tender issues within my story. I can't wax eloquently like Michael Kruse on this--the Lord has given him a great gift and passion for economic justice. There are others who may have a different opinion other than Michael's, but who are eloquent and gifted as well. I speak out of the context of my personal story. I don't have any simplistic answers or solutions, which, is part of the reason why I am writing this. I know there is a chance that there will be some readers who will think I have been blessed with abundant materialism. I can't deny that. In the context of my journey, I don't believe I have been a materialist in spirit or in practice.
Just for a simple fact sheet for background: I have opened my home to a completely unknown, homeless stranger and let him stay with us for 10 days--when he came to my house to stay the first day, I had known him 75 minutes--with no previous contact or awareness that he existed. I have faithfully sought to tithe every paycheck and give over above that. When I had no money, I gave a missionary who was seeking further theological education, 12 volumes of commentaries (which back in those days cost about $20.00 a volume). I have opened my home to let people stay for various lengths of time. I have been generous with my time, money, and gifts. There is a tier of New Testament texts that speak of giving generously with a cheerful heart, out of worship, with no eye as to what is in your savings (your emergency fund, your college fund for your children, etc.). Those texts and stories (the widow and Jesus, for example) have shaped our giving. We've been married for 26 years and we have never paid more than $100.00 for a television. Our current television--we did pay for $100.00 for--is currently 24 years old. I have never gone into debt for a dining room set, living room furniture, etc.
That gives you a brief picture in small snippets some of my heart and background. Most of the above paragraph, we practiced and did during a stretch when as a family we believed we were following God's call to us--which resulted in earning $12,000 in the suburbs of Chicago from 1984-1995. Even back then, the poverty line for a family of three was just below that figure.
"Yes! I've thought about the seeming conundrum that Jesus puts forth with turning the other check while at the same time we are to seek justice. I've heard some claim that we should only seek justice for others and not ourselves, but I don't agree with that. I think that there is a difference between having a victim mentality and enduring wrong doing. The difference for me lies in the principle of forgiveness.
When we have a victim mentality we are actually judging others actions without being accountable for our own. With a victim mentality we never really forgive the perpetrator because that would diminish the self pity we get as a victim.
We can endure the wrong doing of others without agreeing implicitly or explicitly to the perpetrators attitudes. By evaluating our own actions with respect to the perpetrator, we can choose actions that would discourage further wrong doing. If we don't speak out about how damaging the perpetrator's actions are, then the perpetrator never realizes the forgiveness offered him, because he never realizes the wrong inflicted.
It is through forgiveness rather than judgment, that we are enabled to change our actions. Bearing wrong doing while speaking the truth in love communicates forgiveness.
As Christian's we "kill" evil with kindness. This is why Paul reiterates Pr 25:21-22 in Romans when he is speaking about love. Enduring wrong doing is just the start in the forgiveness process. Returning good for evil completes it.
How many master's would have been convicted of their inhumane behavior if their slaves had actually followed the admonitions of Paul and served their masters as if they were serving Christ? I have been deeply impressed by the story of John Woolman (sp?) a Quaker in the colonies before the American revolution, who convinced the entire Quaker community to free their slaves. We need more Woolmans in this world!"